Category: Thoughts

  • 2012 Into 2013 – Successes and Failures

    Batman on Desk
    Batman is always prepared for the new year. And everything else.

    The end of the year is here! Rather, by the time this is posted, the beginning of 2013 will be upon us. For the standard re-examination that comes with the conclusion of a calendar cycle, keep reading.

    2012 was a time of many changes for me, both personal and professional. I’ve come to realize that I spend far too much of my time dreaming without doing, and an equally disproportionate amount of time being concerned with how others perceive me as opposed to how I perceive and treat myself. I think I’ve made some positive steps into making a happier year for myself and those around me. As always, it is those around me who have made me recognize that it is more about being a “Go-Giver” than a “Go-Getter”, since it returns in spades. A few thank you’s:

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  • The Best Theme Park for Kids and Me: LegoLand

    The Best Theme Park for Kids and Me: LegoLand

    Yes, that title is grammatically correct.

    While I don’t have the creation prowess of some people (even if that video includes instructions), I still love legos, and have since I was a child. The best part of any birthday or Christmas was the new model to put together.

    When Lego Mindstorms came out I was lucky enough to get that and some of the expansions, furthering my creativity as well as gaining some valuable early lessons in programming logic through their simple drag-and-drop programming interface. This was also my first experience with Java, when I found an entire homebrew community online that used the IR reader that attached to the computer’s serial port to control their smartbricks. (more…)

  • Sorry for the downtime!

    Sorry for the downtime!

    Sorry to anyone who visited in the past day (more sorry for me) for experiencing the site down. I’ve been fiddling with it and even when I spend all days doing this, can mess up my own site.
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  • Two Year Freelance Mark

    Two Year Freelance Mark

    Yesterday I renewed the domain for the (soon to return, I swear) Orange Blossom Media. That means to me that it has been two years since I officially started that as a freelance business. I mainly stopped last year, due to excuses that don’t really make much sense anyway. I suppose being disheartened could be one of them that sticks. Still, I recently decided to do so again, and have gotten a few clients, so that has lifted my spirits on it a bit. I briefly considered changing the business name and going in a new direction, but as I already have all of the paperwork in for this one with the gubmint, have nice business cards, and the domain and logo, I decided that I’d just go the easier route. Still I think that it’s strong, so I have no regrets with the decision.

    Writing this is more a reminder for myself that this is something that I will continue putting some of my time into, even if finding clients is more time consuming than getting the work done for them. In addition to my WordPress development, and hopeful mobile app development this year, I feel that it will be a good way to keep stretching my abilities, and teaching myself new skills. Here’s looking to you 2012, the year that I come into my own on the web!

  • My First Marathon

    My First Marathon

    I’ve heard the saying that the halfway point of a marathon is really the 20 mile marker, and having finally done one myself, I can attest that it is indeed the case. Daniel and I foolishly stopped our running regimen about two months ago, and went in to it a bit more unprepared than we would have liked. The week before was nice, with an excuse to slack on weight lifting, and to eat more delicious foods while throwing around the term “carb loading”. Getting through the event though, was quite an ordeal, and my body is still mad at me about it.

    While running there was a woman near me that had a shirt on showing that she was running for her son, whose birthday was the same as mine, down to the year. I don’t know what he died of, but it got me thinking to the fact that I am 23 years old and healthy and able to do something like this, which I can now mark off as a bucket list item completed. I hope that the run gave her some form of healing, and am glad that I have the chance to do so myself.

    Beyond that, I have already accepted my first freelance project of 2012, and it has gone well so far. I hope to complete it before going on a trip later this week to Fort Lauderdale to see Lisa and a short cruise that we were lucky enough to get via Daniel’s boss. While I’m still having general headaches over work and difficulties in school bureaucracy, I’m also hopeful that this portends a good year, and successes that I have been striving towards for some time.

    Do any of my readers have things that they want to complete during heir life that they intend to do this year?

  • Obligatory Resolution Post

    Obligatory Resolution Post

    Here is yet another New Year’s post. It has been a full year since redesigned my website, and I feel another design coming on soon. I have tried to keep busy over the past year, though I haven’t always done as much as I wanted to, as usual. I find it easy to make promises that I do not keep, and plans that I do not follow through with. At risk of doing so again, I am going to post a list this year of a few things that I would like to get done.

    • Develop a web application. It doesn’t need to be as grand as some ideas that I’ve had previously, but something that does something useful, is well designed, and works.
    • Complete a  rough draft of my non-fiction book. I’ve already begun a good deal of my research, and have started an outline, so as long as I keep myself on task, I should be able to do a good amount of work. I’m setting the high goal of completing a first draft, in an attempt to stay motivated.
    • Work on becoming more prolific with my blogging. If I resuscitate the websites that I’ve been working on, I’ll have 3-4 to update, and it would be useful to do so on a regular basis, especially if I’m trying to get more readers for them.

    There are several other things that I intend on working on, but I don’t want to overload myself any more than I already am. Judging on how I overextend my actual reserves of motivation, I don’t want to do so quite as much. Maybe by making some proclamations here, some people can help keep me going.

  • Should I Mourn the Decline of Reading?

    Should I Mourn the Decline of Reading?

    I recently read an old New Yorker article, concerning what life would be like if most people stopped reading. I have aspirations of making writing become a career path in some respect, or at least continue on with it personally if I have an audience. I read constantly, in all forms and formats, and often wish that I made even more time to read than I currently do, or could go through more books quicker. I feel guilty if I pick up my 3DS or the television remote in lieu of a book, or if I open Twitter on my iPad instead of iBooks.

    Still, I am aware that I read more than the average individual. I keep a large backlog of fiction and nonfiction books by my desk to work through, often working on several at a time depending on my mood. I have several novels on my iPad that I’m working on, and if I get bored of that for a bit, I pull up the newspaper, Flipboard for its articles, or the invaluable Instapaper app (seriously, if you ever read anything online and have a compatible device, buy this app). According to studies quoted in that article, and from my personal observations, the purchase of books has declined, as has their consumption, and reading comprehension in general is moving in a downward trend. The author foresees a return of reading for pleasure or personal information to a niche group, this time not due to a higher rank or elite status, but due to general disinterest and apathy.

    Is this a bad thing? As someone who enjoys reading myself, and who would like to find paying customers for things that I write, which would become increasingly difficult with a smaller customer base, I cringe at the thought. Still, different strokes and all, so I can’t take this personally. I just wonder if there will be other side effects that we can’t envision now, or how people will change in general without the more consistent use of the internal conversations that books provide. Watching a movie or television show, even based on a book, is not the same as living that story in your own head, mapping your experiences onto it and letting it shape you as you are shaping it to yourself. Creative thinking results in many of our greatest achievements, and I worry: will a decline in literacy correlate to a decline in creativity?

  • The Tree of Life

    The Tree of Life

    ‘The Tree of Life’ is a slow burn. It is a film for the patient, and for their patience, they are rewarded.

    The film had been on my radar for about a year, and life, as well as only the single art theater in town playing it for a limited run, kept me from seeing it until now. I’ve never particularly paid attention to Terrence Malick before, and did not go into this movie with the history of his work that many critics have. I did watch ‘2001: A Space Odyssey’ again recently, and I think that it helped to prime me for the visuals in the film. Indeed, Douglas Trumbull returned to do visual effects for this film, as well as Peter and Chris Parks, who had previously worked on ‘The Fountain’, one of my favorite films that is also concerned with a different tree of life. Their work and Malick’s eye for a great shot made Every scene a bit of eye candy, whether Jessica Chastain tending to her children, or a volcanic eruption on early Earth.

    ‘Tree’ is about the universe, all encompassing. Beginning with the news of a son’s deaths, the movie jumps back through the creation of the Earth and life on the planet, including the rise of dinosaurs and their fall to a meteor strike. We are then returned to one of the other sons re-visitation of childhood, in Waco, Texas in the 1950’s. There is love and beauty on behalf of his mother, raising him and two other brothers with a tender hand. There is hardness also, from the firm embraces of his father, a stiffly paternal Brad Pitt. He is conflicted both at home and at work. He loves his sons but cannot express it in the same way as his wife. During a scene where he is teaching his sons to fight you can feel the tension, the play punching bordering on real fighting. His struggles in reconciling his love of music with his need to earn a living for his family fuel his inner turmoil, which most of us can attest to being stressors in our dealings with others in our own lives. A good portion of this pain resonated with me personally, which I imagine is what many of the positive reviewers of the film felt as well.

    Tree of Life Poster

    I’m not going to say that I fully felt Malick’s entire vision. I do agree with some of the detractors that there is a bit of pretension in the movie, and not enough of the substance is stated outright” I gathered it to be about the contention and duality of the different ways of being, whether tender or firm. When young Jack confides that he feels that he has become more his father than mother, it puts his scenes as an adult making a living as an architect into perspective, as memories of his childhood flood him while at work. Sean Penn, as an adult Jack, had far too little screen time, and I was yearning to feel more of how his childhood shaped him as a person. While ostensibly being about the formation and destruction of the planet, the film is really his story, and one that was entirely human.

    Emotional, overwrought, beautiful and melancholy; ‘The Tree of Life’ is one of those films that can have tremendous impact on an individual, but if they do not feel it, then it can falloff and fall flat.

  • The Transcendent Man

    The Transcendent Man

    I spent a part of my morning watching the documentary ‘The Transcendent Man’, about the works and ideas of Ray Kurzweil. He is known as one of the inventors of the flatbed scanner, as well as the Kurzweil Reading Machine for the blind, music synthesizers, and other technological devices. He is also an author and futurist, whose idea of the Singularity as an evolutionary path merging human consciousness and technology. His meetings with other academics, as well as popular figures, such as Colin Powell, Jon Stewart, Stevie Wonder and William Shatner amongst others illuminate his ideas on the progression of mankind.

    Transcendent Man Poster

    Kurzweil has made many predictions on the future over time, with many coming to pass, and proving personal successes for his businesses and ideas. Extrapolating forward, he has pegged dates of mere decades in the future as to when humanity will irrevocably merge with machines. For instance, based on the progression of computer capabilities, he imagines that in the year 2029, a computer will have the processing capability of all of the brans in the human race. Only shortly thereafter he envisions the rate of technological growth to become too fast for any one mind to keep up with. It is at this point, or prior, that we will merge with machines and in effect become immortal.

    It is clear, in his words and actions, that Ray Kurzweil refuses death. The case could be made that he fears death, and his diet and exercise regimen in addition to the reportedly 200 separate pills and supplements that he takes a day could be his attempt to live long enough to see his visions come to pass. His belief is that soon the life expectancy of the average person will increase more than a year every year, thereby indefinitely stretching lifespan. Included in this vision is the merging of the human brain with computers, so that we can back up our minds, enhance cognition, add extra memory, and even use the DNA of dead people to bring them back to life. Possibly tongue-in-cheek, but he states that he now sees something useful in cemeteries, which were previously pointless to him, as they are a stockpile of genetic matter for those that we miss.

    His feelings toward our merging with computers, and what that means for the future of humanity, definitely make Kurzweil more transcendent than the average person. Most people, myself included, have a knee-jerk reaction when it comes to this future pace of advancement, and the inability to know what it means for us, or how much change can be made while we are still defined as human. The point can be made, however, that we will all be experiencing it together, and that it won’t be a matter of the computers taking over or anything, as we will in essence be the computers. Still, I’m trying to wrap my mind around it a bit, and finding it difficult to relate to how we live currently and what this future vision promises. As the idea of singularity implies, no one can really know what will happen when it strikes, as a fundamental paradigm shift in the universe will occur, and a new form of evolution will begin.

  • Apple Pie, Oh My

    Apple Pie, Oh My

    Language study has long fascinated me, and as a recent post may demonstrate, so has baking. I recently read Words to Eat By: Five Foods and the Culinary History of the English Language, an interesting history of five historically English food staples, and their storied history of nomenclature. The apple is one of these such foods, the only fruit native to Great Britain, though there it was more associated with the crab apple than the larger and sweeter varieties that we routinely eat today.

    The apple is believed to be one of the first fruits that was cultivated; with over 7,500 cultivars all stemming from a common ancestor of Malus sieversii. Most are created through grafting, as the apple plant is extremely heterozygous, meaning that it doesn’t just inherit DNA from its parent plants, but can differ dramatically. Combine that with the large genetic sequence (an apple tree has almost twice the number of genes as a human), and the fact that they are triploids (3 sets of chromosomes, which don’t divide evenly), and wild variations are hard to come by. Were humans to stop grafting and cultivating apples, they would eventually return to a state more like the wild ancestor that they are derived from. Throughout all of our meddling though, some amazing varieties in shape, size, color, russeting, and flavor, along with factors important beyond taste, such as habitable climates and ability to store and travel well.

    The bible does not state what kind of fruit grew on the Tree of Knowledge, but it was not always represented as an apple. The type of fruit most likely envisioned by the writers would have been the contemporary pomegranate or some similar fruit, but popular culture holds that an apple is what Eve was tempted with. Renaissance painters would draw from Greek mythology in their Christian interpretations, and golden apples have a sordid history in Ancient Greece. Combined with the homophonous nature between the Latin words for apple and evil, and the world’s most popular fruit is branded as a thing of sin. Indeed, the popularity of the apple exceeds any species, as the word for apple in many languages and cultures is synonymous for the term for “fruit” in general. Try it. Close your eyes and think of the word fruit, and see what comes to mind.

    By the way, the pie came out smelling and tasting wonderfully, and is definitely something that I will try again.

     

    Warm Apple Pie and Vanilla Ice Cream with Coffee. Heaven.
    Warm Apple Pie and Vanilla Ice Cream with Coffee. Heaven.

  • My Fight With Cupcakes

    My Fight With Cupcakes

    I like to bake, this is no secret. Also common knowledge is the fact that I am not always very good at it. Like when it comes to making cupcakes, for instance.

    Especially when it comes to making cupcakes.

    I love the little treats. I get to snack on a piece of cake and have a little bit of self restraint too (insomuch as I’d be eating a slice the size of my face if given the option). I want to be able to make them at home though, and not have to go out every time I get the fix. Plus, I see all of these amazing flavors and concoctions online, and figure that the deliciousness of some of these photos is something worth attaining.

    <green cupcake
    Seriously, just look at these

    I have had my share of failures, and then some. Many are my fault (trying new recipes when I don’t have old ones down, misreading and using baking soda instead of baking powder or vice versa), but sometimes I feel like making the perfect cupcake is just not something that I can do. I’ve had monstrosities emerge from the oven, feebly raising their malformed little cupcake arms and begging for a merciful end to their short existence. Today I went for a low fat recipe, replacing the butter with some oil and yogurt. They didn’t fall, they didn’t burn, they puffed up nicely, albeit more than I intended since I overfilled the papers. They did, however, come out tasting a bit of cornbread, as my last attempt of “healthier” cupcakes went. My attempts at frosting then went awry as I tried using a decorating tube with frosting that was a bit too thick. I got random squiggles out of it, making them even more pathetic than before.

    I know I should probably just stop. I’ve wasted far too many sticks of butter and cups of flour on my futile attempts at sugary goodness. I should pack away the frosting bags and baking tins and call it a night. And yet…

    I found this vanilla cupcake recipe with frosting and sprinkles that looks amazing!

    Look. Look at these things.

  • How I’ve gotta get a life

    How I’ve gotta get a life

    Get a LifeI am a horrible procrastinator, something that I can freely admit. This used to be a badge that I wore with pride, but now I feel is more a source of shame and a mark of sloth. I get embarrassed when looking at how little I accomplish with my free time, and spend more time than I care to admit aimlessly surfing the web. I recently installed leechblock on firefox to help stop myself from visiting time-wasting sites during the day, but while sick this week found myself scaling back and then just turning it off.

    I have made and broken many promises to myself, but maybe I’ll be able to keep a few if I set quantifiable goals. I am greatly inspired by Google’s Matt Cutts, who does regular self-tests on himself, such as his 30-day challenges.  I have decided to blindly sheep along with him and try some out myself. Seeing as it is near the end of the month, I’m allowing another week of “preparation” (read: extra slack time) before putting this plan into action. I already have a few ideas lined up, but there are plenty of months to fill if it works out, so I’ll just start with a few for this one. My ideas for the next month are:

     

    -Writing at least one thing that made me happy each day

    -Doing at least one sketch each day

    -Going the entire month vegan

     

    I have various reasons why I chose these three things, which I’ll end up going over when I start, but this is basically my promise to you, internet, that I will make some minor goals with a set timeline and make myself complete something for once in my life.

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